About 3 weeks ago I was scouring the internet to do what people in desperation for answer do, stalk stalk stalk......and sometimes emailing those pages that I stalked!!! I was stalking to find a glimpse of Ru, a tiny new bit of information as I had, up until this point, not been sure where she was or under what person's care. Now Imagine your a mom who has a deep heart connection with her child, you know what this is because you have felt this love if you have been pregnant. You haven't even physically met this child yet, but you would step in front of a bus for this child, and pray to someday be able to snuggle them closely, tuck them in at night and watch them grow. You feel that sweet baby rolling around in your tummy, you see ultra sound pics that confirm their delicate heart beat and tiny fingers and toes. You love this child with all your heart. Now imagine that love and not being able to feel that sweet foot gently nudge your ribs, or a flat space on your belly where a bump should be but you know there is connection to this child that you have not met. Imagine the insanity you must feel when realizing how much you love this little one but you have no idea where they are, if they are safe and who is taking care of them........so if I have described the desperation of needing to know clear enough thus far than you can understand why the stalking needed to happen!! haha!
So I as I sat in front of my computer, searching for orphanages and facebook pages with foster homes and other such crazy leads incliding other momma that have adopted from Datong City and have blogged about it, looking for picture after picture of a possibility of a glimpse of my sweet Ru I finally came across a lady who had blogged about her own journey to the Datong City Orphanage. The picture she used drew me in Immediately!!!! I am sure you remember the pic I posted of Ru on my page here, well right behind her is a colorful cubby and this woman's child was sitting right in front of the same cubby!!!! Confirmation!! I had found what orphanage she was in!! Step 1 complete!!! I emailed a few of the blogger moms, and messaged some facebook sights to see if anyone else had journey'd to the orphanage in the last few years that may have a pic of my girl. Not expecting much I went to bed satisfied that I had exhausted every avenue to find more info that I could. Luckily baseball season started soon after this lovely evening of stalking and I got busy and distracted!!
Two nights ago around 1:00 am I received an email notification, don't ask why I was still awake, so I checked it and was overjoyed to see that it was a response, essentially out of the blue since I first started this crazy search a month ago!!!!! They had such amazing pieces of new information about my sweet girl!! I now know for sure that she is in a foster home with a foster mom that she is heavily attached to. This makes me happy and deeply sad for the lose my sweet girl will have to endure when we first take her from her homeland. They told me that because of her OI they are very cautious with her, especially if she plays outside so they tend to keep her inside. The even emailed two new pictures for me to dissect every new piece of info that I can about my little girl!! So here is my little Ru and one of our first "ultra sounds".
|This is Ru sitting on her foster mommas lap|
|I love this one, look at those cheeks!!!|
I cant even begin to tell how this has lifted my spirits and even pulled Matt to emotion as well!! God's timing is as always perfect!! In the middle of this crazy baseball/soccer season when we don't even get home in time at night to throw a proper meal at our kiddos and we don't have time to even stay awake long enough to feel like we are finishing paper work to bring her home He sends this little gem of encouragement; "I am still over here in China waiting for you Mom and Dad, Please come get me". All of our paper work has essentially been submitted to the home study agency so now all we need to do is wait for our in home meetings!!! I am so relieved to be even this far even though it is the tip of the ice burg!!!!! I think when the home study is complete I will call it the end of our first trimester!!! Thank you all for your continued prayers!!! <3 <3 <3