I know there is a reason for this though!!
The paper work, the running around, the fundraising, the process.......the waiting.....all of this is Gods way of asking;
"What are you willing to do to become this child's parents?"
"How much do you love her?"
"Will you go through all of this for little Ru, and continue to do so once she is in your home and in your care?"
Of course the answer to this is emphatically YES I will gladly jump through hoops, sign papers, get finger printed twice and be at the mercy of my agencies all so that little girl can come home to her family. YES we will advocate for her every need, medically, emotionally, physically and most importantly spiritually. YES YES YES!!! So even if I cant quite see the end of this tunnel, where she is in my arms on "gotcha day", I know this plan has been made for a reason. Matt is being spiritually tested by placing his trust fully in God to see how the financial part of this process will all work out as I am being tested daily to be patient and know that it is all in his hands and she will be home when His timing is perfect!
I impatiently wait to see if I can catch another glimpse of her on someone blog or Facebook posts that are specific to her orphanage, maybe she will be in the background of one of those photos?? Maybe someone will have actually met my sweet girl and be able to tell me just another nugget of information about her little personality. Or even more difficult for me to swallow, and probably what God wants me to feel the most right now, is that none of that is available at the moment because I am to be still and know he has it under control and when I am supposed to know more about my sweet Ru, I will be the first to know! And Oh how excited I will be when new information is discovered, but until then I need to relax and focus on signing papers, going to adoption classes, making copies of everything, signing checks and getting my fingerprints done as many times as they require because in the end of this all I will be holding my daughter from China in my arms, forever.
Until then here is a little bit of what we have been up to....
The month of May means baseball,softball and soccer. But before any of that can start we have to see the end of Ballet for Lou and here is a pic of her beautiful little self after her recital.
So this is another moment where God is asking me to just enjoy the now, the future will come and in that future little Louise will be dancing with her Mei Mei.....